Eat the cake Annie Mae

551 am on Sunday morning I didn’t fall but I hurt myself. They didn’t keep me at the hospital. Yes I thought they might. So much stress on one side of my body has caused my strong side you say no more and a back sprain is now my result. I have no other recourse but to rest. To take the meds and sleep. So at this God hour of nearing 6,am. Vandy took time to talk to me and help me not lay here and blame blame blame my self for having
Only one side that’s working.i kinda feel like Tina Turner” eat the cake Annie Mae. So no teaching today. Only rest. Which is the cake I resist. Crazy right?

When I get like this.

ACH day I write in my journal bgow grateful I am to walk and breath since having a stroke. But really. I just want to walk again. To be whole again. To put this stroke behind me and come back to being me again. I don’t understand what is taking God so long I am afraid to ask him because he might make me wait a little longer. I don’t know what to do. Now I have started a new thing. I can’t make the bathroom to pee and sometimes I don’t even try. I pee myself. Yes I am ashamed of this new behavior. But I can’t get up in time before the water comes down. So instead of fighting it, I just let the water fall fall fall. Then I am soaked and I stink and I am so embarrassed. But I don’t stop. Why? Why am I settling? I can go to the bathroom. Why do I wait until it’s too late. So I apologise to myself for this wretched behavior and I begin right now to do better. Idk. This is crazy. I want a man. No man is gonna want me peeing all over myself omg.now u must finish this get up and get dry.